A Reason Not to Cheat

I was searching my past blog posts to see if I had shared a particular movie and I discovered an old poem instead. I feel inspired to write a story about it. Unfortunately, it will have to sit on the backburner because I have more projects going than I can handle at the moment. I can’t slow down though. I’m thinking about writing full-time starting in June. That means I have to get to work and make a lot of extra money. Here’s to making dreams come true! And here is the random poem that I posted almost four years ago: 

Three

Three hours before this moment,
I was betraying the one I love.

As the moment unfolds,
My heart struggles to beat,
Fighting against the urge to stop
My lungs fill with air,
Reminding me to breathe
My eyes dart towards the one who shares my guilt
Hoping to not be seen
My lips begin to expand
Smiling as an involuntary response
My brain fires signals
Making me turn towards the one I love.

In the moment,
The one I love is holding my hand,
Waiting for my response
My voice is muted by the question,
“Do you two know each other?”
My body trembles as the answer becomes clear.

Three hours before this moment,
I was saying I would never be caught.

I squeeze the hand of the one I love,
Trying to hold on to what I am about to lose
My first instinct is to say no,
Preserving my innocence.
My mouth moves to begin forming the word
Then I am silenced by the one who shares my guilt
My secret lover does not wish to be secret any longer

Three hours before this moment,
I had everything I wanted.
Three seconds after it, I had nothing.