Not A People Person

Today was not a good day. I had to socialize with people I had no interest in socializing with and that put me in a bad mood. Sometimes I wish I was more of a people person.

After Summer

Not worth living
That’s how it feels,
Like if it doesn’t bleed, it can’t be real.

Sentenced to blow away in the wind
While future replacements lie in wait.
How come old leaves have to go away
Just so new ones can take their place?

I used to think I could stay in this spot forever
But I’m being pushed towards the door
And pulled outside by a dream of something more.

Like the leaves, I can no longer remain stationary,
It’s time to glide through the air and try to fly.
A new journey ushered in by the return of fall,
The transition to winter has begun.

Status: Trying to be less miserable.

Short Poem

Withered

I’m sending you a rose in the mail
Tenderly tucked between the pages of a long letter
It will die before it reaches you
But I thought you would appreciate the sentiment.

Your rose will go a minimum of three days with no water and no air
Deprived of the very elements it needs to live
I hope it finds you just where you should be
And maybe it will remind you of how you left me.

Status: Finding some routine.

It's Been 26 Days Since My Last Post

It has been a long time since my last post and I apologize for that to the two of you who read this.

I was slacking before my friend came to visit and I think my friend’s visit tuckered me out more than I realized because getting back to work depressed me, but I did it and worked through it. I’m getting myself adjusted to a new routine, which is difficult for me. I’ve neglected my blog and updates to the group along with making changes to the website, but I am starting to feel refreshed and I finished a novel which makes me smile even though I don’t know what I’m going to do with it.

Status: Happy to finally have made another post.

Busy Bee

I wish I could add more hours to the day. Not permanently, but just for a few days so I can catch up on all the things I need to do. I am feeling overwhelmed by life at the moment. It seems my to do list is longer than it has ever been before and I’m feeling frazzled. I’m trying to pace myself and handle everything one thing at a time, but my pace is kicking me in the rear. I don’t want to speed up and do things incorrectly, but at the same time, I won’t be making many improvements on my list if I continue at my current pace. I need to speed up. I can’t wait until after Tuesday. After Tuesday, my schedule should clear up dramatically until the next Wednesday, so I’ll have a week to bask in the feeling of normalcy that has removed itself from my grasp during the past few days.

Status: Thinking I feel like a chicken with its head cut off, but wondering how anyone really knows how that feels.